Amazing, right after my “I might quit” rant, I have something that I do want to immediately share.  I went to the lower 9th ward yesterday to help build houses for Habitat for Humanity‘s musicians village. I went there with my Newcomb Nursery School teacher, Pat Boothby.  It was really rewarding for me.  I know that it really helps my city just by living here, but this was truly giving back to the city. I even learned a lot about homebuilding – mainly in installing and finishing doors.  It also felt good to use saws and nail guns, which I haven’t used since we lost the Mississippi house.  It would be a lot of fun to go back again with my brothers, friends, or coworkers.  So, if you want to go with me, I’ll probably say yes.

Why do I have a blog?  Why do I have a website?  I have lots of things to say and there are so many things happening to me, yet I don’t ever feel that I can write them here.  It’s sad because some things just don’t get told because I know certain people will be angry if I don’t tell them directly.  I shouldn’t care — and actually I don’t — but I also don’t like it when people are angry.  More than ever, my website is rather useless.  I’m putting things on it to have stuff there instead of because I want it there.  Maybe it’s time for a break.

The last few weeks have been furious.  Not that things are going slow, especially today.  I feel like I’ve experienced every emotion.  While I’ve done so much, it’s the things that I’m looking forward to in the next couple of days that has me most excited, nervous, happy, angry, etc.  I know that I’ll say more in the future, and I don’t even think that anyone will read this before I do… but I just wanted to say something.  Because deep down, I guess I’m really excited.